I'm Learning to Let Go

I am learning oh-so-much; I do not know where to start
I learnt that things are not forever, that friends can abruptly part
I learn more about the world, with each passing day
And I have learnt how young girls in love are often led astray

I learnt that looks can be deceiving, that words are often lies
That empty promises are casually broken by guys
That they never quite have a definite time frame
And that it is useless clinging on hard, or trying to tame

I realize our initials, once lovingly carved onto a tree
Do not mean that you will forever belong to me
Even though the inscription will always remain there
It will serve as just a painful memory, a scar to bear

I have learnt to doubt, not to completely trust
And I have also learnt the difference between love and lust-
I had loved you, but all you felt was libido
I have learnt, and so I am learning to let go

I am learning to control my emotions, my feelings
I am acting indifferent towards your neglecting
And although I am totally shattered within,
I will not let you see my tears, nor go under my skin

Now, tentatively, I step out of the shadows of the past
Resolved to turn every last connection we share into dust
I start shredding all your letters, once so dear to me
And flinging the bits of paper around aloofly

I swallow the excruciating pain I felt deep inside
As my heart was ripped into a thousand pieces; divided
For I must not keep holding onto the past, I know
So I am learning to forget, I am learning to let go

My mother, upon seeing the remnants of our past
Asked me what I was doing, aghast
I told her-I am learning, no matter how slow
I am finally learning to let go