How Did You Do It?

It makes me wonder about everything
The drug I took on the night I lost my life
The looks you used to get me to trust you
A beating heart was never enough for you
I tried to get out of it, so we could keep what we had
You never had a dream to remember
You never had a girl to count on, love
Apparently all I gave was wasted breath

I had my faith
You had your moment
Words took place
And the whiskey started talking
I took your hands off my heart
You took what I never gave
And I took to heart what we went through
And you took all that was good for you

Tell me about that night, I swear I can take it
But trying to go back, no I couldn't take it

I scream words that hurt us both and I'm sorry
I pace the room searching for an open window
I hear your words fall onto a page I hold in my pocket
A pen crawls into my arms, I tattoo your name everywhere
What exactly are you doing to me?
I thought it was all a regret but my mind breaks in two
I pace the room searching for an empty drawer
And when I find it, I will get rid of my destroyed ember of a mind
And start on a scratch piece of paper
First I'll sketch the brain and toss out all possible sunrises

I had my future
You had your drink
Screaming took place
And my sense came out of nowhere
All I thought about was last time
And how it would always be the last time

Go ahead, tell me how it helps your pain
But giving in, I'd be back at square one
An empty room on my mind