Twisted Mind

My twisted mind has made me weak,
I can't control the thoughts I speak,
I no longer know what's right and what's wrong,
And I think it's been going on for too long.

This lie in my head that I somehow believe,
I think just made it easier for me to leave,
But it's not fair on you as memories start fading,
Through endless thoughts of distress I am wading.

A dad you weren't nor a monster either,
I have to remind myself that you were neither,
But it's hard to know just what is right,
When I see what I see when I squeeze my eyes tight.