Effed up girl stuck here

Final entry

Dear Diary

I hate this life is not supposed to be like this
I am not supposed to be the girl left out,
I am not an emo girl,
God i told you i don't believe in this,
I don't believe in the stereo-types they make me sick!

I thought i was kortney
I thought that i was a normal girl with normal problems,
I never thought this to be my last entry,
I never knew that i could hurt so bad!

I used to be this girl with a loving boyfriend
I used to be this girl with alot of friends,
A loving family,
Well a pretty effed up mother but not other wise,
I thought i had that life going that no one else would have!

I loved you and what did i get back?
I got this effed up life!!!

I got stuck here looking at you!!

This is my last to you
Here i sit lying on this cold hard floor
With this knife up to my neck,
This is my last to you all..

Have a nice fuc^ing life!