Hidden Truth of a Broken Friendship

It started as a middle school thing,
just another kid to hang with
Noticed we clicked like my hair clip,
We ran with the kids,
Finely hit high school,
There you where my middle school friend
I rememeber when we use to get high together
I noticed a change, a change in me
Started acting out being the badass,
Grew tough or so I thought

Then for awhile you disapeared,
I hadn't heard from you in a year or two
Then one day after school I seen you,
My face lite up like the sun,
Then in 2007 it was the summer after I graduated
I was outside chillen, watching my neice
There you where your old self man was I happy to see you,
Gave me something to look forward to the rest of the year,

So its probly been 8months since we have been hanging out,
Sadly I know now who you are,
You lie none stop,
You drink to much,
Your job could get you killed,
You hate your family,and think nothing of them
You can be violent,and reckless as me
And the guys,ohh the guys, one new one every week
f_uck one then move on, get pregnant and lose the baby
Feed me more lies while your at it, God will make you suffer for your sins

You use me like kleenex, and it hurts
I make excusses to not see you,and you hate it
Recently we had a thing going,
I was trashed, just me and my old middle school friend
Laying on your bed you took your place next to me,
Curious of the same sex you kissed me,
A shock yes it was,but for some reason I gave in,
A month later it happend again,but more often,
I played your silly game for a bit

I finely got sick of being your toy,
So many times we hung out and I suffered inside,
The night I met one of your guys buddy, he attempted to move twards rape
I really do hate you for that, I had trusted you with my life for so long that now it makes me sick
I wished that one night I was walking home alone drunk coming from your place and a guy tryed to run me down could have saved me the stupid mistakes I've made recently

**i cant continue writting this right now...**