Alittle Of What I Feel

I feel inside, what I've always felt
I feel like I'm lost, like I've lost my soul
I feel pain within, pain so deep & deadly
That I wake to sore eyes, wishing I was dead

I am reckless, brutal, as the affter affects
I walk with a limp, because the night before
Was a war I had to fight, I walk with a poison hate
A hate so strong that it burns my heart

Every object in sight, in sight of mind
I think, of ideas to abuse myself
Rage so strong I'm afraid just unexpectedly
I'll comitt an awful sin, and no you'll never find out

Because when I comitt that sin, I'll be deep under ground, smiling at the world, saying Fcuk the world.
And at that very moment, I'll finely be free of the pain.