In search of...

In search of more
to far to reach
its my own fault
too hard for me to teach

So many bad habits
all too hard to quit
the first step out of reach
it is to hard admit

so many things
unwilling to do
the bad things
get me through

It has to be me
things I cannot blame
cause the person at fault
is always the same

so disappointed
as I have been before
that I have gained no ground
always searching for more

I call out in anger
I try to regain
Im yelling out loud
I yell my own name