Unfulfilled love

She used to looked at me with disgust,
Like I'm nothing but a dust,
Though she's like that,
I looked at her without sparing a blink,
In many discouragement I started to sink...

When I was given a chance,
She looked at me with romance,
But fate didn't agree with me,
And covered me with falling debris...

Now my morning starts with an unending rain,
Washing my heart that's filled with pain,
Synchronizingly dropping with my tears,
The rainbow never had a chance to appear...

With every breath I take,
Is how many times my heart you broke,
With every step I make,
Is how many times in tears I got soaked...

She could just say I'm not worthy,
But she just left without a word,
Scarring me for eternity,
Even my eyes has started to blurred...

I've loved you for so long,
Tell me if just one thing can make everything wrong!?!
Try to look back on the things I did for you,
You're the only one who saw the real me, and that's true...

*in tears*
For so long have I admired her,
Hugged her in my sleep as if she was there,
Looked at the mirror as if she's behind me,
Sat under the shade of a tree as if she's leaning on me...