Letting Go To Hold On

I welcome this dark room
with thoughts of tears
picture my heart
tortured by fear
enduring with time
forever mine to bear

gasping for air
struggling to breathe
thriving on the echoes
of each one of my screams

dying inside
is keeping me alive
deep within my chest
lies a murmur of life
comfortably cased in ice
emotionally deprived

if my heart didn't cry
there'd be no blood in my veins
fueling this vessel
storing all of my pain

time squeezes my heart
lack of emotion makes me choke
i want to throw up
but instead i revoke
swallowing my misery
of words unspoke

I'm lying to you
each and every day
with tears i cant cry
and every smile i fake

this void you left in me
needs to be cleaned
I'm hurting so bad
It's a daily routine
tormenting myself
but always unseen

I'm not weak for giving up
I'm finally strong enough to let go
freeing myself from this puzzle
of a broken heart with missing pieces

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