Curse +

At first I didn't realise,
I thought it was all a dream,
I thought I would wake up okay,
Instead I woke up with a scream.

Not knowing what had happened,
Or how I got this way,
My hands started trembling,
And it got worse and worse each day.

Everything was going wrong,
I didn't know what to do,
I made so many wrong choices,
If only you knew ...

I tried ignoring the pain,
But the tears made it real,
No matter how hard I tried,
To be able not to feel.

Everything's so overwhelming,
And not handling the pain,
I picked up the knife,
Nothing was ever going to be the same.

I opened my eyes,
And saw the blood on the blade,
I paused for a second,
And realized the damage I made.

The tears make it hard,
And the scars are making it worse,
It's getting harder to hide,
This unwanted, frightening curse.