Holes In Paper

Tell me, Justin, is this what you wanted?
To live a life where you go completely untrusted?
I can think back to when you were hand in hand with her
You were only trying to make me jealous, I was sure
We were so God damn young
Trying to make words with a swolen tongue
Pacing back and forth, thinking about you
Why you messed with my head, why you just had to tell the truth
I let you talk about the girls you lost
But when I mentioned that one guy, you shook me and never stopped
I fell into pieces and you had no idea
That I didn't talk in your arms because I couldn't breathe

It got to a point where we ran over holes in paper
How we skipped over things that came back later
I always knew when there was blame, it would be on me
And how come at the end of the day, you were who you wanted to be?
And I was all you wanted to have
I'm not sure why you couldn't just take half
I will never forget the day I screamed at you
I said I used to cry over you, and you looked at me, you never knew
I tore myself open to make listen, my dear
And you never once seemed to hear
And for once you listened to what I had to say
And the last time we talked was that day
We all know it's something you never wanted to hear
Even though it ruined us, it didn't faze me like I had feared

*dedicated to Justin*