Repeat

Song re-playing over and over... She is hurt over and over....
the words of the song are little comfort... she cant escape from it.
He hurts her like a repeat performance... she forgives time and time again...

Family repeatedly in and out of hospitals... repeated world crashing down, and running into the ground.... Getting up in the mornings repeatedly harder every week...

Now harder to get to school everyday struggling up the steep stairs to her refuge.... Repeatedly crying... Repeatedly missing him...
Repeatedly wishing... crying from within for hugs from him...

Repeat performances.... the tables reversed for one day she was not the one to be hurt... she hurt someone else... she had never wanted that to happen again.... in that process she hurt herself... now can't bare the world to keep repeating the pain on her.

Struggling with the promises... scared of the world... repeated worrying... repeat acts of kindness and sacrifice for those she loves... trying to carry the world because she doesn't want them to suffer.