Death always around

No one can tell me I'm normal
i am who i am and that's it
when i call myself crazy or insane don't argue with me
lately i been feeling down
i got this gut feeling somethings going to go down
as i try hard not to act superstitious
i can't help it
when i drive i feel like someone's knocking on my window
i pull over and stop but i only make myself insane more
at night i wake up grasping for air
either I'm drowning or someone is chasing me
i have a stupid feeling
I'd like to pin point it but i can't
that's driving me insane
i talk to people to see what all this means
i hear the same thing over and over again
death is behind you
terrified to get into my car, petrified to fall asleep
i don't want to die
this stupid feeling won't leave me, and i don't know why
all i know is death is always around
i can't hide from it and i can't run either
in the back of my mind
i know is there so what do i do?

P.S. No I'm not planning on committing suicide.
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~NETA~