God please forgive me...

Escape? there is none.
and tomorrow...tomorrow i wish would never come.
I'm stuck in between whats real and whats illusion.
I'm surrounded with confusion and chaos,demons who dwell on my pain.
They wont set me free,it seems they got these shackles on my heart, i keep pulling away screaming and crying out for help, but there screams seem to be louder than mine and all of a sudden my voice becomes silent, and my eyes are blackened by the tears that I've cried and it seems I'm drowning in my own emptiness, and everyday it keeps getting harder and harder to breath, i cant take this pain any longer it feels Ive reached the end of this messed up life of mine, it seems Ive been abandoned by all the angels that once surrounded me and now all i see are these demons who want nothing but to bring me down to hell with them but it seems its too late for Ive arrived to the end of the tunnel and all i see is darkness filled with only voices who bring me down to a place i never wanted to be in. My hand is reaching for the light but the more i try to get there the further away it seems and everyday heaven seems to be more like a mirage that i see but isn't real. I pray for god to forgive me for i have lost faith in him, i pray for him to show me the way out of this misery I'm living in. God please forgive me