Blade..

Pleasure overcomes me,
until i can no longer see.

pain escapes my body,
feeling only numbness,
wanting nothing less.

i close my eyes tightly,
waiting for it to go dark.

you see it is kind of funny,
thinking i rely on this so much,
aching for its every touch.

the scars are only painful reminders,
of what happened on those painful nights.

who knew such a simple tool,
would become my closest possesion,
never learning my lesson.

it is what i call a blade,
this is what i use,
when all i want is for everything to fade..