Pondering Thoughts of Dreadful Truths

A darkness engulfs my broken heart,
As I lull myself to sleep I ponder,
Why is it I part?
Why do I part myself from this world?

Leaving myself in the darkest depths of despair,
I never fall into the wonder of dreamless sleep,
Why do I torture myself?
Why leave me with no other choice?

No one dares enter the realm of my mind,
No one tries to overcome the terrible,
The terrible truths,
And the astonishingly torturous mindset of mine.

I have no choices left but to live,
Live in this hell called life,
Until there is a better place calling,
And leading me to the beautiful end of the horrific life.