Thoughts

It's 2 O clock in the morning,
and I am wide awake,
This anger, pain and loneliness,
is more than I can take,

Struggling to make sense,
of what I need right now,
Love? Hope? Peace?
but I am asking how?

Thoughts of you deep inside,
of how you broke my heart,
Then walked away smiling,
cause you tore my world apart,

I love you but I dislike you,
for what you did to me,
Used, lied to and degraded,
pain left for everyone to see,

I will never mend inside,
at one time I thought I would,
But 2 years gone by so fast,
nothing changes as it should,

I still feel unable to get over it,
still feeling all alone inside,
My heart still beating,
but my spirit has almost died,

I did move on for a little while,
but something pulled me back,
I remembered something about you,
and everything I lack,

You are not worth my time or love,
I gave you all that I could give,
Now it's time to move on and forget you,
I'll stop crying and try to live....