Forever Broken

I breathe in deeply trying to calm down
is it bad that sometimes I don't want to breathe back out
i just want to leave this place and forget you
my mind has moved on but I don't know about my heart
i would say it was broken but I don't know because it is no longer there
you have removed it from my chest and kept it for yourself to torment it and make it believe that one day you will cherish it
but you wont
this is not fair
i want it back
i wish I had never seen your face or felt your touch or let you cheer me up with your kind words
every smile every laugh every memory
you can have it all I don't want any of it
cause you mean much more to me than I mean to you and she means much more to you than I ever will
but I cant be mad at you because you are one of the most amazing people that I have ever met
and I cant be mad at her just because she is ten times prettier than I will ever be and she is a nice person and she has everything that you want
but I know that I will never be strong enough to remove you from my life because I love you more than any other I have ever known
so I will continue to let you corrupt my mind body and soul
and I will be
Forever Broken