This Pain With in Me

This pain with in me
I can't get rid of it
It eats away at me
As I Impassively let it

I submitted to it
I don't know what else to do
I try to get rid of it
It just keeps coming back

Im crestfallen
My mind is a blur
My eyes glued to the wall

I scream
Hoping it will make me feel better
It dosn't I can still feel it

This pain is making
a doleful loss
I feel I can't take it anymore

I slowly walk to my dresser drawer
and pull it out
hoping it will stop some of the pain

I bring it to my wrists
and slowly make a deep cut
I feel the blood coming threw,
spilling out
Like a fountain of happiness

I do it till I can't do it anymore
I feel good for awhile
Till the pain comes back
I start crying

I go to my window
and look out at the stars
The tears come even faster
I wish I wasn't here anymore
This pain is eating me alive