The Real Me

I hate this dreadful feeling
I'm sick of being left out
I'm tired of feeling...
So full of doubt.
I hate all these lies
Sometimes I just wanna
Crawl up && Die
Its hard to believe just
months ago I didn't feel so
naked being the real me.
I miss his smile
I miss his touch
To bad I'm outta luck.
If I could I would change the past
because sometimes I feel I'll never last
another minute in this dreadful world.