I can finally be free

Tired of being underestimated and beaten endlessly
Don't want to put up with this anymore to much that I cant take Don't want to be here any longer and I want to run away Unfortunately I cant at least not yet..
To night however, I will try and see if I can last in the cold. For when the clock strikes 12:37 I will leave

If I come back I will not speak of what I did
I will not do anything but suffer in pure utter silence
I'm tired of being wasted upon and not being thanked.
Don't want to exist any longer to many tears fall from my face.I do not want to live yet I must I made a promise And I will not lose trust

Though my faith is fully gone
And my tears are bloody
I will not grieve upon anything
I will look up and fake a smile
But not for long just a while.
Until I can finally find my place

One where I can be loved
Run free with the dove
Be intertwined with pure life
And be happy with who I am
And not have to cut
Not have to bleed

Its a place where I can finally be free

thanks for reading. i don't care if the stanzas are all weird! i was venting and it just came out kinda like a poem...