Him

I think I'm in hell
Am I supposed to feel like this hollow shell
Is my head supposed to ring
Like the sounding bell

My heart is wrenched by pain
As tears pour like rain
Heartfelt memories of him
Of which I cannot contain

He comes to me in a dream
Happy, maybe, as it may seem
When I wake
It tears me by the seam

Thoughts confused
I feel so used
I'm the cause of pain
He accused

He isn't hurt, why?
He seems so happy, so high
He is happy
Why aren't I?