today i missed you the most
i dont know why
it wasn't our anniversary
but i just had to cry
today i looked at your picture
i hadn't for a while
you looked so happy then
your face luminous with a smile
I touched the picture
tracing your face
and there i was beside you
holding me in an embrace
I touched the picture
pain swelling my heart
making it impossible to breathe
god, i'm breaking apart
I headed to the drawer
looking for something hidden
my heart thudding intensely
knowing that this is strickly forbbiden
I headed to the drawer
looking for the blade
with a pinch of regret
crushing all the promises i made
I pictured you in my mind
-Angry with your arms crossed
shaking your head in dissapointment
at the thought of all hope lost
I pictured you in my mind
green eyes accusing
for my bad behavior
and self abusing
So i threw the blade back
still desperate for an anesthetic
the solution to my throbbing heart
feeling a littble bit pathetic
So i threw the blade back
triumphant in a way
knowing i had won another battle
to face another day
Carefully i put your picture away
and wrote to you another letter
writting away my emotions
feeling just a little bit better
Carefully i put your picture away
Trying to blockout some sorrow
bracing myself for another attempt at suicide
knowing you i would miss you more tomorrow
