Life of pain

Do you want to know
the amount of times I've cried
sit locked in my room all alone
and just wished I'd died
well now I'll tell you why

my problems started when i was born
one leg too short, i can still hear the taunts
then when i got to the age of 5
i caught my sister with a knife
ready to cut, i found out she was very sick
soon after that, she stopped eating, and became whats known as anorexic
sent to a clinic to be made better
but that was nearly the end of her
then when i reached the age of 11
i was abused, by one of my friends
he was 16, i was still a baby
but that didn't stop him doing that to me
i can vividly remember that day
what he done in the church
locked the door
it was just me and him
then he started his attack
and forced me to grow up
needles to say i never went back
it took all my strength to tell my mum
but she just forgot so i was forced to deal alone
then i got into my first serious relationship
i think i loved him
but that ended to quick
i cried even more for days none stop
my friends just told me i should shut up
friends, that brings me onto my next issue
my supposed best mate
says we don't talk no more
it's all my fault and she doesn't care
she hangs about with another girl now
we still talk a little
but how can i make it up
when i don't get the chance to
she doesn't show me how

so these are the reasons i want to die
because i fell that no one cares
so maby the next time you see me
I'll be hanging from the stairs.