When We Learned How To Lie

I've learned to love the color red
It proves these sirens aren't just in my head
It shows someone has the courage to listen
But they just turn away, with nothing said

I'm too scared to open up, put my words on a shelf
I'm too scared to be myself, much less anyone else
If I trust you, I'll show you the true me
But most people walk away before they can see

I've been too numb to understand what hurts
I can't even turn the corner, who knows where danger lurks
I would like to be able to mouth the word forever
But it's hard when I can't even see us together

I want to feel you on my skin
But why does it seem like such a sin?
When I travel to another world at night
I see so much and realize what I'm living is a lie

I don't believe myself or trust what's come between us
I feel so naked but I'm already in hiding
I feel so tired yet I'm not even trying
This isn't me, and I have everyone else to back me up now
What happened to the young girl who was always too loud

I had so much going for me and it's all gone
I was just too blind and waited too long
For something to come and wake me up when I was wide eyed
I guess it all happened when we learned how to lie