Dear God

You are still unable to see
The pain that's deep inside me
You wanted me full of joy
But I've become depression's greatest toy.

The Devil is tearing me apart
Doing drugs is what I start
He's making me believe suicide is the way to go
Someone give me a gun. I just need one blow.

I feel so empty and lost inside
But the Devil won't let me hide.
I'm just tired of trying
What's the point? I'm already dying.

God, I ask that you take my life tonight
I have no strength to try, I've already lost the fight.
I don't want to hurt anymore
Please let me walk through your open door.

The half a bottle of sleeping pills are starting to kick in
God I know this is a sin
Please forgive me and bring me toward the light
I don't want to go through another painful night

Hold me in your arms, Lord. And always hold my hand
I know you'll never leave me, next to you I'll stand
One last I love you, Chris. It's time to say goodnight
I can't wait when I don't have to fight.