Did you think I was gonna be with you forever?
Forever...such a filthy word...
It destroys everything beautiful about today...
Nothing that is forever is tolerable.
Neither were you.
I didn't tell you...
I watched you struggle alone,
drown in a reality you yourself had faked,
pretending I care
pretending I love
faking smiles...
Giving you a hand more possible to escort you to the depths
than save you...
No I never warned you
cause if I did
you would be prepared
and no, you did not deserve that.
Watching you trying caused me pain
but I never stopped
cause pain is my second nature
-maybe the first evenly enough-
You told me our love would never end.
I've learned that everything in life comes to an end.
You couldn't stand that.
I watched you cry
collapse on the floor in front of me
giving me everything.
How childish of you..grow up.
This is not about everything.
All this time you gave me nothing
and that was all I got.
Stepped passed you, opened the door
and walked away.
It almost felt like dying...
