Not going okay

Today is not going okay
I feel as though I may decay
This has been a bad week
Happiness I do seek
I don't know where I went wrong
I never knew these feelings could get so strong
I may say that I am just fine
But that's only because I don't want to whine
Maybe I say that it meant nothing when I let out a sigh
But maybe I really felt like I was going to cry
I want to pick up the pieces
As more and more my happiness decreases
The pieces are scattered in the wind
Through this pain I grinned
Life is like a merry-go-round
It spins and spins on this ground
Life is always different then it seems
It sometimes crushes people's dreams
The true meaning is hidden behind a fence
So this really doesn't seem to make sense
I am very pathetic
For that I am apologetic
Sometimes I just want to lay down forever
But that wouldn't solve anything whatsoever
If there was a simple answer I'd take it
Even if it wasn't completely legit
My mind is working over-time
And seems as if it is filled with slime
Think think think
All this thinking is starting to stink
All in all
I feel like I've hit a wall