Sufforcation

I stopped breathing today,
Just thought I'd let you know
In some little way
How are things anyway?

I wish we never said anything
And I remained my shy, shy self
That this never happened
It is something I regret

You hurt me yesterday
Now I stopped breathing
I will not cry today
Nor any day

My face has turned blue
It reminds me of that first day
I had painted everything blue
For that day was special

Now I think about
Our lives in true
Sometimes I wonder who
Would leave me so blue

And as I turn different shades
I think of the shades of you
How you stole that one from me
How dare you

You then stole them all from me
And left one to spare
What color it was, I will never know
But I will say, I no longer care

Now as I lose my mind
I think about you, I'm about to cry
The tears want to flow
But I will not; that is not me

You talked about love and honor
Everyone has their own
Except me that is
For you stole mine long ago

I am now on the floor
Purple as I be
I think about how you walked
All over me

You would crush dirt
Then love it in your palm
Then throw it into someone's face
What an ugly reality

These last few breaths
Escape my lungs
I think about the last moments
Of when things were good again

This poem spills out of me
My heart is heavy
My mind is ruined
See what you have done?

You used to make me laugh
Now you make me cry
Why cannot you see?
That I can only stop breathing

The tears they burn
The head it hurts
The eyes were blind
The nerves broken

I was blind
But now I see
Who you truly are
Who you try to be

And now I leave
With these last few lines
A heavy heart
And an imitation smile

I stopped breathing today
Just thought I'd let you know
In some little way
How are things anyway?