Depression man with aids

It all turned out great, until he found out he got aids.
He couldn't bare to love knowing his life will end in any day.
If he were to love, and get too attached
to see her stare at his own death is unpleasant.

He can't bare to love seeing her suffer
to love her means unable to comfort.
He dares not touch her knowing his disease
If he had some conscious to keep her free.

His life is shut-ten out of the world
living with no love is like a crystal with no shards.
without its gleaming bright light
it's nothing but an ugly sight.

He cries for that messed up day
to go back in time warning himself as he says
"Don't do it, don't go all the way"
"you'll regret later in the days."

To say goodbye and bid farewell
to everyone he loved and everyone he cared
his disappearance means nothing like an ant
pursuing his life before his final breath

a shadow in the presence of the earth
an end to the life of what he's worth
nothing but a mere diseased person
into this life that he's learned.