Failure

I think I'm a
Failure
But I'm not sure
I know I disapoint my parents
But just because I choose to live up to my expections,
not theirs
Does that make me a failure
I'm not really sure
I never do anything right in my brothers eyes
Does that make me a failure
I think I am a failure
But I try not to think about it
because the urge to cut grows stronger everyday
everytime I step foot in my bathroom I stare at the razor
sometimes I pick it up
But I won't give in
I won't fail in this area of my life
Because if i fail in this area,
I fail to myself,
not to my parents or my brother,
I fail to God and Myself
So I will beat this
I won't fail©