A Letter from Above Aug.--1989

A LETTER FROM ABOVE
# 24
AUG---1989
HELLO CHARLENE,

I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH YOU'VE DISCOVERED ABOUT ME DURING
OUR RECENT CONTACTS, BUT I HAVE BEEN FIGHTING SO HARD TO MAKE UP
FOR THE MISTAKES OF MY PAST! FIGHTING LIKE NEVER BEFORE.
I FEEL SO PRIVILEGED TO FINALLY BE ABLE TO GIVE IT ALL THAT I HAVE.
HOW COULD I HAVE WAITED SO LONG? I HAVE (DESIRED) TO (CHANGE) FOR A LONG TIME, BUT THE (TOTAL CONFUSION) OF MY LIFE PREVENTED SPEEDY RECOVERY.

I FEEL LIKE GOD HAS LOOKED AT ME AND SAID, JIM I HAVE SEEN THE HARDSHIPS
OF YOUR LIFE, MANY NOT YOUR FAULT, AND MANY SELF IMPOSED, BUT WHEN I LOOK IN YOUR HEART,
I SEE SUCH A STRONG DESIRE THAT YOU HAVE,
TO DO WHAT IS RIGHT.
IF NOT FOR THE CONFUSION IN YOUR HEAD YOU WOULD HAVE SUCCEEDED LONG AGO.
YOU HAVE LOOKED UP TO ME AND SAID,
HELP ME GOD I CAN'T GO ON ANY LONGER.
IF I KEEP MY EYES ON YOU AND DON'T LET THE CONFUSION MAKE ME LOOK ASTRAY,
I THINK I WILL MAKE IT AM I WORTHY OF YOUR HELP AFTER ALL THAT I'VE DONE?

AND GOD SAID TO ME, JIM YOU REALIZE THAT YOU ARE ON A PATH OF TOTAL DESTRUCTION, I AM SO GLAD THAT YOU ARE ASKING FOR MY HELP
WITH SUCH SINCERITY, BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT IT IS GOING TO TAKE, A TOTAL
COMMITMENT
MANY TIMES BEFORE YOU HAVE ASKED FOR HELP, BUT LOOKED AWAY
AS I WAS REACHING DOWN. AND MANY TIMES BEFORE I HAVE CALLED TO YOU,
AND YOU TURNED A DEAF EAR, AFRAID YOU WOULD FAIL, AND ONLY FALL DEEPER
INTO DEPRESSION.
WELL, I AM NOT DEAF AND I HEAR YOUR PLEA, YOU HAVE ENOUGH SINCERITY
AND A GOOD AMOUNT OF FAITH, ALL YOU NEED IS STRENGTH.
STRENGTH FROM ME! AND STRENGTH FROM WITHIN! YOU ARE A FIGHTER
AND A WINNER! IF YOU STAY WITH THE FIGHT,
I WILL SEE THAT YOU WIN!
YOU WILL FEEL LIKE YOU ARE ON YOUR OWN, BUT YOU ARE NOT ALONE!
I WILL GUIDE YOU IN BATTLE, BUT IT IS YOU,
WHO WILL FIGHT IN COMBAT,
YOU WILL SUFFER MUCH PAIN, BUT WITH THAT SUFFERING COMES THE RENEWAL
OF HOPE, AND THE KNOWLEDGE AND WISDOM THAT I HAVE FOR YOU!
I KNOW THAT YOU ARE DOING THIS FOR YOUR OWN SANITY AND (SURVIVAL),
BUT WHEN IT IS OVER, IT WILL BE A GREAT (BENEFIT) TO YOUR FAMILY TOO!
I HAVE ALWAYS HAD GREAT PLANS FOR YOU, BUT COULD NEVER MAKE YOU SEE,
THAT IS WHY I GAVE YOU THE BEST WIFE AND CHILDREN THAT I HAVE EVER
GIVEN ANYONE, AND FOR THAT, I KNOW THAT YOU WILL FIGHT TO WIN,
NO MATTER WHAT!
THE BATTLE IS NOT OVER , BUT BELIEVE IN ME! YOU HAVE ALREADY WON!

JIMMY DEAN McMILLEN