When i lie there i look back,
back into the past that killed the one that lives,
the one that lives but has no life,
i look back n see what happened to her,
i see everything,
everything that has ruined her life,
a life that could be the best thing,
best thing that should be,
should be the most wonderful thing in the world,
wonderful thing that could beat all things,
all things that could have saved her life.
I see torture,
torture that ruined her life,
torture that shouldn't have happened,
torture that happened for too long,
torture that will never leave her mind,
torture that stops her from doing the things she wants now,
torture that has effected her life now.
I see pain and suffering,
suffering that came from all sorts of people,
people of friends,
people of family,
pain that came from them people,
pain and suffering that didn't need to be,
pain and suffering that effected her life now.
I see the fake,
the fake smiles,
the fake laughter,
the fake giggling,
the fake people in her life,
the fake trust in people,
the fake that has effected her life now.
i see the proof,
i see the nicks and bruises left on her little body,
i see the cuts and gashes left on her little body,
i see the scares appearing on her little body,
i see the pain coming from her little body,
i see the tears coming from the pain of her little body,
i see the thoughts effecting her life now.
I see her,
I see her standing there confused about what's happening,
I see her sitting there worried what is going to happen?
I see her crying at night because what's happened to her,
I see her thinking "what can I do to make it stop?"
i see her thinking "should I go on with it?"
i see her thinking "what if it effects my future life?"
I see her now,
I see how all of it HAS effected her life,
I see how she wants that damn reverse button,
I see how bad she wants to break out of that shell,
I see that she's trying so damn hard,
I see that she still wants to cry all the time,
I see a lot of hate coming from her all because her past DID effect her life now.
