Scars

These scars on my wrist remind me of all the pain that i have gone through.
Sometimes I wish these scars would stop calling my name begging me to do it again.
Because now I am addicted to it and some how I cant stop.
I am not happy anymore unless I am with one guy then my whole world changes and I am happy with him.
He tells me he doesn't want to see anymore scars on me or else I will lose someone that i truly love.
This world is changing and more people are dying but if he was to ever die I would be dead cause I cant live my life without him.
He is so special to me but these scars on me remind me that I have a past, and that I will now never be able to let it go, and it is all because of these scars.