His Last Thoughts.

I sit here and think
My mind made up
No one can stop me now
Sissy's at school
Dads asleep
My step moms working
I down another pint
I tie the first cord around the rafters
then she comes to mind one more time
My baby sister, how can I just leave her?
I have no choice though.
She'll understand...
I tie the loose end as tight as I can
I gasp for breath, determined not to fight it
So many images flash before me
as the darkness closes in ..
I feel no more pain.. Theres a dark shadow now
Its coming toward me..
He grabs my arm and drags me away
I made a mistake I scream
One more chance .. PLEASE!
I can get it right this time I SWEAR!!
You made your choice he grumbles
I cry as he throws me into a dark pit..
It cold and I wish for one more second alive
I would put the rope down
and grab my sister and tell her I love her
Tell my step mom sorry and hug my dad.
I'm sorry everyone. I Love You All!

My brother committed suicide May 08, 08' and I wrote this as what I thought his last words and thoughts would have been.