Undefined Love

The sun rises.
A dead feeling poisons the air.
Come and find me here. Murder me.
Life is not worth it.
I have learned to suffer but not to live.

I walk across the street.
Freezing air makes me shake.
It is summertime, but what does that mean?
I never want to see her again.
Please murder me.
I am weak, too weak for this fight called life.

I want to spend my time in solitude.
Lock me away from color;
Make my world grey.
Murder me; please murder me to release me from this self-invented hell.
I stop at the stairs;
Suddenly I feel tired, then there is nothing.