Delusion

I slide back into reverse,
My past is haunting me,
Like a curse,

I thought I was past the pain,
But I went back to my old ways,
And now I'm engulfed with endless shame.

All the hurt and pain you caused,
It stayed with me, I couldn't forgive,
And that was my fatal flaw.

Numbing my pain,
Seemed the only way,
To stay ignorant to my situation,

And in conclusion,
I've come to find,
That my delusion has caused self harm.