Silent Hell

Don't know where to start
I'm a silent hell
Pain tears me apart
in my hideous shell
Locking my shattered heart
In an abandoned cell
suffering from a curse
From the darkest spell
Not once feeling good
not once feeling well

This punishment makes my heart so ill
Can a heart be healed with a healing pill
With eyes carrying lots of secrets
Misty and huge burdens
Never talk about my lowered eyelids
Never look through those heavy black curtains

This hell never rests even at the calm night
I can feel this inner fatal fight
It is burning me from the inside
It keeps me awake and looking at
These pale stars and stare
Wondering, do I really deserve this care?
Can they let me share my grief with them?
Or did this wish become so rare?

Come on, hide these painful tears
Try not to show your horrible fears
Never let this immortal torture appears

Just keep this hell unleashed
Lock your heart in a jail can't be reached
Because they are all hateful and careless
Even when you are sick and weak
Feeling sad, exhausted and bleak
About your frustration never speak
It is better to show them that fake smile
Never cry, even if it was for a short while

No one shall help me when I deeply bleed
Their hearts are full of selfishness and greed
And they are growing in there like a deadly weed

Let my wounds kill me slowly
Don't ever touch those deep scars
Because I am a silent hell
And living one more day is so harsh....

*Special thanks to Norhan for helping.