What ever happened

As i stare at the ceiling
I wonder what happened
What made everything go wrong?
Why did it end like this?
Life isn't a fairy tail
There are no happy endings
Only sorrow and pain
People say that things only get better
For me things only get worse
It seems I am always two steps behind
No matter how hard I try
I tried to make it better
But only made it worse
Everything i touch turns to ruin
Lives of those around me
Fast forward towards a happy end
My life seems to stand still
With an end in sight
A razor in my hand
To make it all right
I stare at the ceiling
A different idea in mind
Maybe this was my end
Maybe this is the way it is supposed to be
Coldness seeps over me
Blood pouring over the floor
Only one question is in my head now
Why?