What do you do?

This isn't really a poem but i just felt like writing down what is going thought my head.

Who do you turn to when your hero's fail??
Your parents wont talk to you!
your sister doesn't have time for you!
your best friend is too busy with her daughter!
your "boyfriend" doesn't even have to time of day to even talk to you because he is too busy with his friends!!
How do you cope? what do you do? All i can think of is crying, the tears just keep pouring out and i can't make them stop, I just don't want to be her anymore. I just hate it now!!
Just when i thought my life was getting back on track, I just get kicked off and end up in the beginning again and I don't think that I'm strong enough to go threw it again and again.
I have no one to turn to
I used to be this happy, loud and energetic girl and now all I do is cry and mope around all day, Everyone knows that there is something wrong but i just ignore them,
How am I suppose to tell anyone when no one has time for me anymore? How am i suppose to talk to the person who says that they love me when all he can do is ignore me when i try and talk to him and just disregard everything that i say??
Am i suppose to just walk around with a smile on my face, day in day out? I cant do it anymore, Things are just falling apart faster than I expected and i don't think that i can handle it much longer.
I look at my blade, and wonder, should i do it? would i regret it? Is it worth it?
No its not, I put it away, and sit there an say, It will all be over soon, so be patient and try and live another day