Biggest Sin

Staring out the window, no direct thoughts,
Just thinking of what used to be;
Tears clouding my vision,
As I think of about you and me.

A tear trickles down my face
And falls on my lap,
Then more start to flow;
The rain making a light tap.

How could I let this happen?
How could I be so stupid?
Was I blind by love?
Or was it caused by cupid?

I was taught to never show my pain,
No matter how much I was in,
Always smile, and don't frown,
My grandma told me it was the biggest sin.

So I listened to what I was told,
Not thinking it would hurt in the end,
Always be happy, and never sad;
My grandma told me my heart would mend.

She told me be happy and believe,
Then I met this boy, who changed my life,
I loved him with all my heart,
But he cheated, and that cut deeper than any knife.

So now I know how much it hurts
To be in love and still love him,
And love him with all my heart,
Now I know that's my biggest sin.

I believed in love,
And it tore me apart.
It messed with my head,
And broke my heart.

Written by Makalah Aug. 3, 2008