I promise i'll watch over you

"when you were babies and i got diagnosed with cancer, i promised myself and your mom that i was going to make it for my two little girls.. i asked god to let me make it for my two little girls.. and i made it. i made it for fifteen years. i don't want to say good-bye to you sweetheart, i don't want to go just like you don't want me to go.. but i was here for fifteen years and i think I'm pretty lucky that i got the chance to watch you grow up. i love you to the bottom of my heart and i promise you that i will watch over you. i don't want to die Heidi. i don't want to leave you or anybody else but when i do you have to promise me that you're going to be okay. the only ones that can help me now are the doctors... who knows, maybe it will be months, a year, or even longer.. but i want you to remember that my family is everything.. family is everything Heidi. and i just hope i can make it to at least one of your graduations... if i could change the way things happened then i would change it so that i could watch you graduate too and watch my grandchildren grow up.. because i know your grandpas didn't get to watch you grow up and i wish they did. i can't baby, i can't stay with you... when my time comes just promise me that you will be okay. i don't want to die. i wish that i could stay for another fifteen years.. i wish that i could stay forever but i can't.. he's calling me to heaven sometime Heidi... we don't know when but we have to face the fact that i won't be here anymore.. we'll see each other again some day. i love you, and i know you love me just as much as i love you."

- Lester Wayne Berlin <3

these are the words my father said to me one night when he claimed he couldn't stay with me any longer... he told me his time was soon to come. i knew he was not going to make it, but just hearing him say those words broke my heart completely... I love you daddy.