I f*cked it up again
I just hate looking at the screen
Reading over and over
What i said
And thinking
What the h*ll was i smoking?
I made such a fool out of myself
First i thought it was pathetic
Then it got to be kinda funny
But it in the end
Im still crying
Just like before
When i opened that door
I dont think it closed
Why cant i just tell you
And not make up thses lies
But why cant you see
That it hurts me
Cause i know you dont feel
The same way about me
So its not that easy to tell you how i feel
Im so scared of what you think
And that you wont talk to me
Once again
I just love being you friend
I just wish for once it would change
And instead of me tryin to pretend
You would spill
Your heart for me
I wish thats how its meant to be
But its not
And i wont be
So i just gotta let it go
Should have learned from my mistakes
Should have thought it through
Now once again
I dont know what to say to you
I wish you understood
That my heart isnt easy to explain
And i make excuses that are so lame
Now i feel like you think of me
As some crazy girl
I hope you dont
I know you do
With trying im threw
Just please try
And try once more
To understand
My hearts been brocken
Many times before
