I would have done so many things differently
If only I would have known
So many things I would have said
So many emotions I would have shown
I would have hugged you tighter
I would have held on longer
I would have asked you so many questions
Just so I would not have to wonder
I would have asked you for advice
And I would have saved it for now
Just so I would not be so lost
Because you are not around
I would have told you how much I love you
I would have begged you not to go
I would have asked God to let you stay
Because I cannot do this alone
I would have stuck around longer that day
If I knew it were our last goodbye
But Dad, you did not warn me
You did not tell me you were going to die
I did not know I was going to lose you
My Dad, my coach, my best friend...
I would not have let go that morning
If I knew your life was going to end
I would have listened to your laugh more carefully
I would have focused on your eyes
I would have taken in your scent
I was not ready for tough goodbyes
I would have prepared myself for this
It would not be so unexpected
I would have seen it coming
And I would not have been so affected
There is so much you should have been here for
So much that you are gonna miss
So many memories that we should have shared
But those memories will never exist
You will not be able to see me graduate
You cannot walk me down the aisle
You will no be part of being the first witness
Of my baby boy or girls first smile
Everyday seems to be a struggle
To let go of the past
But the truth is when it comes to losing someone
The pain always seems to last
I know I cannot count on you being here
Because heaven is way too far away
But for now I will hold on to the notion that
We will be together again someday
