Words from the heart

Ive lived with this wound that gets bigger by the day
keeping quiet about it, and just hoping things would change if I pray
Loving you was all I ever wanted and could do
but after long sleepless nights, Ive decided you couldn't love me too

Your actions speak louder in fact they even shout
your words mean nothing, just some nonsense that you talk about
the words "I love you" have no meaning at all coming from you
its just your way of holding on to the only love thats true

You hold onto me unable to let go
however the reason is not because you love me so
In your eyes I'm just someone that is always there
the only woman in this world that ever showed you she cared

But you cant appreciate that, you cant appreciate me
how much more did you think I could take before I set myself free
Do you honestly think I don't hurt each night that I'm alone
do you think I'm still that teenage girl that has yet grown

My mind is different its more wiser now
I'm not that same teenage girl that for you fell
I'm not blind anymore nor am I naive
I know what you are and I feel your deceit

I may not show it much but I have grown tired of it all
lonely days and nights with nothing more than a phone call
and being placed second or even third
to all you outrageous corruptions, you don't that hurts

Knowing your never there knowing I'm always getting played
knowing the only support I get from you is from the children we made
and when I try to talk to you, I just waste my breath
I just get myself more stressed out to the feeling of nothing left

I cant go on like this, I'm sorry Ive grown weak
I need someone to be there for me now, someone that will listen when I speak
a man that can hold my hand when things get harder everyday
someone that wont leave me alone, so that he can go out and play

A man that is a man, and not a little boy
a man that sees me for me, and not just a toy
someone thats gonna love me and make me first in his life
someone that would be happy to make me his wife