Mixed Feelings

You are still my addiction
Someone I cannot flee
You are the man from my dreams
With you, I can always be me.

More than a million times
I have given you my heart
And each time you took the chance
To painfully rip it apart.

Moving on is a hard process
Something I thought I could do
I tried to stay strong
But then spent a night with you.

Thinking about the previous years
Brings a smile to my face
Then You sleazily cheated on me
Still I thought you were ace.

Your beautiful blue eyes
Still catch me every time
I live with no regret
But I wish you were mine.

I miss nearly everything about you
But never will I miss your lies
You thought I would never know
But it was too late to apologize.