Into the light

Wandering lost, torn and abused
trying to make sense, though still confused
my eyes ache, searching for any light
my demise sinking in, from this forever night

stumbling blind, i have no direction
no one to catch me, an unseen protection
the darkness so cold, i can hardly go on
but i refuse to five up, my wills to strong

i try to put this pain behind and leave it be
lock it in deep down inside, for no one to see
i keep going on, trying to find my way
with each burning step, wishing it'll be OK

but in this darkness i stumble and finally fall
and with my defeated cry, to who shall i call
on my knees, a lost broken man
in this darkness with praying hands

i call out to God, though I'm not sure
for all I've done, if he'll even answer
"I'm so tired, and oh so cold.
do you even care? like I'm told

I'm so hungry, it hurts to even breath
can you forgive me, for all of my deeds?
Oh God, the pain, it shoots through my veins
slowly eating me away, this familiar shame

I'm sick of being sick, tired of being tired
only wishing for this life to finally be expired"
i collapse to the floor, my energy spent
shuddering and gasping, my plea had been sent

my agony over powering, my eyes lull shut
my breath weakens, i begin to give up
then he calls me back, a voice unknown
at first only distant, yet rattling to the bones

it warms my face, pries open my eyes
the relief so great, i can't quite my cries
my eyes hurt for its so strong, and so bright
all my fear, my pain, my weakness, fades into the light