Don't Understand

I don't think you understand
Just how much this hurts
I'm told I'm their "Friend"
But then I get pushed back in the dirt.

It's as if they hate me
When they treat me like Sh*t
But what they don't know
Is I'm loosing this game bit by bit.

They make me feel like cr*p
As if I have no worth
One day I'm gunna finally give up
And leave this earth.

I'm starting to feel not part of it
Like I'm no longer their friend
And I was the first to believe
That they'd be there 'til the end.

And I'm so close to giving up
Just about to walk away
And find a better place
Where I can finally see my brighter day.
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Not the best poem;; but from the heart||| or whats left of it...

Renee
xx