Dance of Midnight.

A glooming peace,
this morning with it brings.
The sun for sorrow, will not show its head
some shall be pardon, & some punished
for, never was a story of more woe,
than this of Juliet,
& her fair Romeo

-William Shakespeare
Romeo & Juliet

I still remember...
I still remember when they killed us
diseasing our blood within the winter snow
forcing our bodies within that coffin
silently, they kissed our lives to sleep

falling, falling, the snow is falling
reminiscing the night of our death
where we failed to stay alive
& the flames in the ebony blew out that night

hearing our blood flow within our flesh,
that night we knew we would never trust again

...forever...
...forever...
are we still broken?

Whispering those wonderful lies
that beckoned us into the winter snow
then they left us out there,
with a knife,
in the freezing cold
holding the blade of the dagger
gripping it
tighter...
tighter...
until the blood falls down
then we look upon our hands
the cut is small
yet the blood drips
drawing the crimson from our wound

...forever...
...forever...
are we still broken?

Needles pierce through our eyes
we awake,
dancing in the darkness with another stranger
ripping out our eyes
our mouths dare not scream
for silence sewed our lips
when we vowed our love to them

we've fallen in love
we hope it's love

Down, fall our eyes,
bleeding, dangling from the sockets
our bodies drop to our knees
basking in the blood that is our own

forever,
forever
are we still broken?

Love
Love is blind
so down,
down fell our eyes

falling, falling, the snow is falling
reminiscing the night of our death
where we failed to stay alive
& the flames in the ebony blew out that night

hearing our blood flow within our flesh,
that night we knew we would never trust again

...forever...
...forever...
are we still broken?
Please tell me we're not still broken

Night encloses my sorrow,
memories visit our graves
as the venom,
the venom continues to flow endlessly through our veins

Aimlessly,
we walk through the forest of broken dreams
lost & alone
where are we?

In the trees, on the branches,
I can hear the poems of whispered lyrics
escaping the lips of the birds
singing song of reckless abandon
of the souls we once were

I can hear someone calling to me
see their shadow running
running from me
deeper into the forest, into the darkness
desperately trying to set themselves free

I run after them
loosing the stranger to the black

standing in a clearing,
surrounded by uncertainty
chorus of the stars
singing to me

there she is, before me
standing behind the crystal
she beckons me closer
& I approach her

I extend my hand to touch her
but I only feel ice,
the cold reflective surface,
of an empty mirror

then I look closer,
look at her scarred face,
into her dead eyes
notice they belong to me
she is me

I watched my reflection
play back at me
those nights I cried myself to sleep
showing me the past I'd rather forget

watching her die
watching our heart break
I cringe in pain

she replayed the cruel lie,
that passed his lips
the cruel lie,
that sent me
into spiraling depression

In my ear,
I could hear those words
as if he were whispering them to me again
beneath the light of the moon

I love you

Falling to my knees
my eyes continued to watch her
I hold onto my heart
clinging to the empty space, I longed to be filled

I watched her hold onto her body
breathing heavily,
loosing oxygen
& the way she smiled when he told her he was lying
the serenity in her voice
while her tears were falling
made my insides tear,
I watched her smile,
& pretend everything was OKAY

In her world,
thunder roared
nightmares screaming in the children's ears
shaking them awake
while I watched the murder of my soul

raising the knife in the darkness
portrait of me,
painted on a silhouette

he held me against the tree
opening my mouth to scream
I sing
Please don't kill me,
I love you
In the moonlight,
I can still see the smile on his face
I love you too
Then, a sudden stab within the night
made your heart skip a beat

falling, falling, the snow is falling
reminiscing the night of our death
where we failed to stay alive
& the flames in the ebony blew out that night

hearing our blood flow within our flesh,
that night we knew we would never trust again

...forever...
...forever...
are we still broken?

Mark unto the butterfly,
snow turning to rain
sorrow calling upon the crimson blade

watching the weapon fall
hearing it shatter to the floor,
watching her body drop
to the ice cold floor

& I run to the mirror
pounding my fists against the glass

I try to scream my name
yet the needle & the thread
seeps through my lips tender flesh

silencing me
deeper darker longer than before
& I can feel my blood

pounding on the mirror
my body doesnt move
& Im still trying to scream
down,
my body falls
landing on my knees

I can feel my closed fists sliding
the cold sending chills down my spine

breaking
cracking

Disturbing the silent stillness of the night

Breaking
Cracking

The noise running loosing itself with the wind

Breaking
Cracking

The birds unsettle themselves in the trees

Breaking
Cracking
Shattering

The mirror is deteriorating,
along with the story it once told & the secret it knew it held

I look up,
& the mirror falls
the blades cutting the soft brown earth

Then, the wind blew
bringing back the cold winter night
light rain painting pictures on the floor
as the evanescent moon wrote lyrics in the stars

& you stand there
taking place of where the mirror once resided
the wind blowing through your hair
diamonds, falling on your face

scarlet red flowing down your skin

bringing my body up from the ground
slowly, I walk to you stranger,
& take your face into my hands
the blood from your eyes
warming my ice cold skin

the thread, keeping your eyes locked
keeping your sight blind,
rip apart,
& for the first time you see tonight

As we stand there
beneath the crystal rain
& as I stare into your eyes
Ill watch the story of all the fallen
broken little pieces

I feel the warmth of your touch
surrounding my face
the security of your arm around my body

You bend down to me,
I reach up to you
then
you kiss me within the darkness
in the pouring rain

& slowly, but surely
we fell in love

falling, falling, the rain is falling
reminiscing the night of our death
where we failed to stay alive
& the flames in the ebony blew out that night

hearing our blood flow within our flesh,
that night we knew we would never trust again

...forever...
...forever...
are we still broken?

winds whisper through the trees
leaving their marks on the leaves

the candle is burning brightly
oh,
lonely fire

you grip my waist
lifting me from the grave
spinning me into the ebony
my body flows with the wind

turning me inside the mysterious black
you pick me up & hold me with the sky
gracefully you place me down
as we dance to the lyrics of the night

we can dance together
we can dance forever
as the forest sings its song
of hearts forever gone

the orange flame dances with the wind
fire, fire, slowly growing dim

jumping to the stars
their light our only way
& the moon is screaming
forever stay
red sparks fly from the ivory,
falling to the wick
as the night carries the flame with the wind

the candles dying out
as we continue to fly

from the sky,
you pull me into your arms
tighten me in your embrace
as we spin beneath the crystal rain
on the beautiful frozen ground

the wind blows secrets through the trees
as you whisper to me you love me

the fire hushes out into the night,
the flame died in our lives

complete,
bone chilling darkness surrounds us both
as you kiss me upon the lips
death carves out our heart
as you hold me in the dark,
& the reaper fell in love with me

entwined both our bodies lay
within this darkened night
& this is the remembrance of the night we died

falling, falling, the rain is falling
reminiscing the night of our death
where we failed to stay alive
& the flames in the ebony blew out that night

hearing our blood flow within our flesh,
that night we knew we would never trust again

...forever...
...forever...
are we still broken?
Please tell me we're not still broken

there was a smile
& there was a laugh
& it echoed through every crease of the forest

whistling to the birds
singing to the anthems of the sacred ebony

the clock chimed
the song of forgotten midnight
as we continue to dance
with the constellations of the stars

rain tell our story,
take our past within the drops
& let it shatter to the floor

while the wind blows
& we dance into the night
I can hear the graceful howl of the saddened wolf
the darkened cries of the nocturnal owl
& the nightmaric screech,
of the mountain lion

I can feel the feline animals
crouching inside the darkness hunting for their prey

& as you lift me,
& spin me in your arms
I see the light of the moon
reflect off a mysterious crystal surface
as you whisper in my ear
once again,
that you have fallen in love with me

far up into the heavens
far beyond the trees
softly,
the angels voices serenades
my newfound nightmare

our dance,
coming to an end
slowing the final turn
eloquence & desire
concluding before dawn

letting go of me
I stand alone
& on your knees,
you ask of me,
Will you marry me?
there was a smile,
& there was a laugh,
& it echoed through every crease of the forest
creating the fairytale I thought I'd never know

a beauty I'd never seen
& a happiness I've longed for years

but,
you were only a dream within a nightmare

in this beautiful world,
nightmaric thunder roared
when I figured out,
I was the only one dead all along

from beyond the trees
did a gorgeous myth appear
whispering your name like a song
her voice coming & going with the wind

she sang of how you were hers forever
& you were never mine

yet, you deny her song
you remain on your knees
& continue to ask of me
Will you marry me?
who do I believe?

But her words still reach us,
circling our bodies
plaguing my thoughts
& all I hear is the lyrics of her song
no longer your words, but your love, my heart
forever gone

infernal light peeks over the horizon
causing night to dawn day
nocturnal animals fleeing
to daytime darkness

yet we stand there,
me & you
the only vampires of the eternal midnight
under the murderous light of the yellow rays
that belonged to the deadly sun

smoke rises from my skin
as the wind blows through my hair
flowing beyond my shoulders

I can feel the tears within my eyes
my lungs collapsing inside of me
body becoming weak
before I could fall to the floor
I hear you run to me, leaving nothing but a pack of dust in your wake
& catch me in your arms
before my cascade to the ground

with your arms around me
I feel so secure,
I'm in the safest place between heaven & hell
oh, twisted nightmare,
but I'm protected in your embrace

sing to me,
as the light kills my life,
sing to me,
tell me our love was never wrong

forever
forever
am I still broken?

Breaking free from your clutches,
out of your embrace

I run from you
I run from the light
& I danced with the sun

falling, falling, the rain is falling
reminiscing the night of my death
where I failed to stay alive
& the flame in the ebony blew out that night

hearing my blood flow within my flesh,
that night I knew I would never trust again

...forever...
...forever...
are I still broken?

racing past the trees
your words beckon my ears
as my eyes cry,
cry deep dark tears
because like them all,
you were a beautiful lie all along

hiding beneath the darkness of the branches
evening turning to night

I feel your breath behind me,
turning me to face you
you tightly grip my waist
& whisper, begging in my ear
Please, don't leave me
with your words hanging in the air
monsters clutch at my wrists
demons clawing at your arms
tearing us apart

slipping from your grasp
barley touching fingertips
please
please
wait for me

they're chanting in my ear
they're chanting that song
that you weren't dead
but alive all those nights
you tried to keep me alive
they're screaming at me to believe them
& to forget, I ever knew you

throwing me upon the ground,
amongst the weeds
the nightmares
the demons
they leave me alone in my thoughts
to battle my monsters
of the darkened love,
they said you put upon me

I cover my ears
deafening the echos of their words
that linger,
in the flowers around me

day turns to night
rain combining with hail
the glass hitting the floor
cutting the leaves
causing the roses to bleed

drenched, in the water of the sky
surrounded by the sharp edges of the dangerous glass

I stare at them,
& they're calling me,
knocking at the door of my veins

at first,
I refuse their words,
strong enough to block out their song
& save my skin from eternal scars

but then,
the darkness overwhelmed me
nightmares, leading me deeper, & deeper into the nightmare
monsters screaming my name
the demons pulling me down
& the most gorgeous myth
finding her way into my once pleasant dreams
singing to me,
continuing to tell me,
you were never mine

& when I thought it was over,
thunder continued to roar
each time you came looking for me in the night
each time you found me shivering in the dark

& each time you told me,
that beautiful myth was not your own
I gave into your words,
I gave into your arms
but she continued to scream the song
of our love, forever gone

Now,
no longer strong enough to refuse the blade

yet, I still run
run away from the calling of the knife,
escaping the sound of self mutilation

deeper into the forest
lost beyond the webs the spiders weave
I fall,
fall to the ground
& feel the delicious accidental cuts
of the sharp hail
lying on the floor

tears roll down my cheeks
twisting with the rain

& in my mind,
I see your smile
hear the laughs we use to share
our dance, that took nights before it's end
& the comfort I found,
within your soul

happiness reigns over me

but then, she's there
tearing my dream away

once again I run
in a desperate attempt
to leave the thought of you
to leave the thought of her
behind

but I cant escape
I cant run from her
I cant run from you

as you continue to call her words lies
& cry for me every sickened twisted night

I am at a loss
but as I wander
my faith instills itself in you
I choose to believe you
& give all of me to you

but her words dont leave me so easily
or the deed she said you'd done

yet, you promise me
it's nothing but a story in her mind
that you were really dead all this time

& as I walk,
through the valley of the shadow of death
plagued by the nightmares of her foolish deceptions
do I cry,
I cry
& carve your name into my skin
before I loose you forever

forever
forever

my body laying lifeless against the tree
so weak,
beautiful open vein

I feel the gentle touch
of your cool fingers
caressing the side of my cheek
calmly, calmly calling me awake

when I open my eyes,
I see the worry written on your face
as you pick my wrist up
to examine the damage done

slightly, I twitch
as you slide your finger down
my bloody scar
the sting from the wound
quieting my anxiety & my nightmares

you raise my wrist to your lips
& passionately kiss my cut
trying to take away the pain
trying to end my suffering

opening my eyes widely,
to see your face clearly
I stare at you,
as you care for my wound

storm,
thundering & lightening
awakening the demons
gusts of winds
blowing in from the farthest sea
bringing mist,
to the haunting grounds of our graves

I continue to stare at you,
ignoring the sudden dangers of the night
& you smile into my eyes
comforting the silent screams
within me

you lean closer to me
grabbing hold of my neck
bringing me into you
so you can kiss my lips

forever
forever

my fingertips paint the outline of your jaw
as you sit there, & smile to me
with you, I know I am in heaven
sitting in the middle of hell

as the wind blows,
carrying the mist along with it
I see her,
dancing amongst the gloomy fog

her body glides, across the soft, brown, earth
& kneels besides you,
stealing your face away from me
she tilts your mouth to hers

bringing your lips,
closer
closer
together

forever
forever

your arms wrap around her
bringing the myth into your embrace
& passionately you kiss her

rising from the ground
before more is brought to my eyes,

I run from you
I run from her
& I still cant escape

wrapping your fingers within my own
you pull me,
from the cliffs edge

rocks falling
falling into
the nothingness that is the world

falling to the ground,
our bodies hit the floor
grabbing me tightly
saving me,
from unintended suicide
forever
forever

I can hear your heartbeat within your chest
racing faster than before

then,
I lift my hand,
& place it upon my own chest
searching for a heart, to call my own

but,
I feel nothing,
nor,
do I hear the tribal drum
inside my body

I look up at you
writing the story of the lie you put me through
within my eyes

betrayal
death..
lies

Oh, darkness, sing my song
forever
forever

the night is young,
as we refuse to hear the sighs of the wind blown
& you kiss me,
your tongue sacrificing the lie
& you hold me,
gripping my body tighter

the ground is crumbling beneath us
breaking off at the cliffs edge
dropping into the earth below

shaking
the ground is shaking
rocking us from side to side
trying to kill the last part,
that is still alive

Im trying to break free from your embrace
trying to free myself from complete death
& yet you refuse to let me go
assuring me, the nightmare is over now

clawing at your hands
I untie myself from you
before my entire world falls apart
& I,
along with it

so once again,
I run
& I run
creating space between us

behind me, you still stand
as my dream
my world
comes to an end

the familiar picture of the trees surround me
as I continue to run
leaving a trail of footsteps in the dirt

I want you to find me

looking behind me
I see the shadow of you

running
running

running away
escaping from you
escaping from death

but the shadow of you is still behind me

but Im still running
for I dare not stop running

my footsteps echo out into the night
dancing into different directions of the forest

I look around me
the agricultural site
of the deteriorating Roman coliseum
most gorgeous death
of a world Ive ever seen

My eyes scanning its ancient beauty

startled, sudden,
I feel your shadow fly through me
whispering my name

without a thought
I run through the tragic storm
trying to escape the nightmare,
that became your arms

running through the coliseum
I can hear the flapping of the angels wings
breaking the wind in half
following me to the end of the night

as you follow the angels to reach me

I turn to look behind myself
only to see you
gliding towards me
& my angels protecting me

before one more step,
did I take
I felt the strong arm of my angel
taking hold of my body
preventing my collision with the mirror

The mirror
& the moonlight reflecting off of it

my body begins to shake
my legs not allowing to withstand the weight
of my own body
No!
I screamed,
my voice singing into the trees
serenading between the leaves

crows flying from the darkest part of the forest
surrounding the coliseum
I could hear them
I could see them
flying to the moon

beautiful escape
my voice,
frightening the animals in the distance
the wolves,
howling into the sky with my deadly song

letting me go,
my angel steps back
falling into place with the rest of his family

& I step forward
my hand outstretched
to once again touch & feel
nothing but ice only ice
the cold reflective surface
of an empty mirror

I pound my fist against the glass
too weak to shatter it with my own strength
No
my voice runs away
flying with the wind
with horror
coursing through my veins
& fear,
overwhelming me

once again, in this lonely night
I watched my reflection play back at me
those nights,
I spent in the comfort of your arms

It showed me your kiss
& my desire to never ever
leave you

as the fabrication of your love
twisted the blade in my skin

it replayed the night,
I fell asleep in your embrace,
& you whispered to me
I love you
the story is done,
when it plays your kiss with the myth

oh, how she looked so beautiful in your arms

black rose petals take you away,
erasing the image of that night

now,
I see a little girl
dancing in the light of day
amongst the field
of the brightest sunflowers

she isn't worrying about anything
& her heart is still her own

within my body,
I feel more pain
when I see her smile happily

I want to go back

I feel your arms around my shoulders
your dance,
breaking through the wall
of my protectors

with nowhere left to run
I close my eyes to escape
but I can't leave,
even within the darkness of my mind,
you're there
looking at me

I open my eyes
giving into you
& in the mirror
I can still see her
the days when I was young

I use to hold my heart then

then I look into your eyes
& that,
is where my heart is now
trapped within the eyes of your own

I drop to my knees
& you drop besides me
your arms still around me

the angels surrounding us
spreading their wings for flight

you tilt my face up
& slightly turn my body to face you
so I can give into your lips
to completely give into death

when I close my eyes,
I can hear the lullaby of the innocence
singing to me
calling me to sleep forever
but I refuse,
I'm not going to die,
not again
not tonight

opening my eyes,
before your lips touch mine

I can see her-me
dancing in the field
within the world of the mirror
without a deadly song to sing

but her lyrics of the innocence ring

Ring around the rosie
pocket full of poise,
ashes, ashes,
we all fall down
thunder echoed,
lightening bellowed
in her field

she continued to dance
she continued to sing
refused to give into the nightmare
that became her world

then,
she stopped
the dance coming to an end
the last words of her song
linger in the atmosphere

& she turned to me
sunflower tight in her little grasp
extended one hand toward me
telling me to come to her

then she asked of me
Can you stray away from the sorrow?

in her eyes,
I saw your face
telling me you were the reason for my hurt
the reason for,
my falling blood

I look at you
how beautiful you are
the thought of leaving you
twisting the blade in my skin

I take hold of you hand
gripping it tight
it's going to end soon, isn't it?

But as I scream your name in my mind,
I can hear the call of the blade
speaking to my veins

deep down inside,
as much as I want to ignore,
I know
I know
that if I stay besides you
& kiss your lips
I'll give into the knife
re-open my wound
watch the blood flow from my veins
blade beckoning last cut

& with that knife in my hand
I don't think I'll know who I am

but I'll sacrifice that all
just to stay in your arms

so I stand,
& you stand with me

my body, giving into your embrace

& as I reach up to kiss you
I see my angels around me
circling the coliseum
their wings turning black
far into the darkness,
even further into the black
I can see her

the gorgeous myth

her lips are sewn shut
& I know
shes trying to scream
your name

I cant believe the nightmares
were right,
all along
despite the blood from her lips
I reach up higher to kiss you

but purposely,
I miss your lips,
& I kiss the side of your face
for,
I do not want to remember
your scent,
nor,
your taste

I step back from you
as you try to keep me in your arms
& I smile
at how you play the game so well

standing behind me
kneeling besides me
I feel the soul of two angels
giving me the strength
to grow stronger

their evanescent body,
transparent to the world
& I hear them chanting
singing in my ear
speaking of your wrongdoing
I never have,
I never will be free
until,
the forever we promised,
disappears from my eyes, my mind

but you scream at me,
saying you want to be together

believing your words,
I take a step towards you
My love so strong
refusing to let the angels hold me back

then I see her,
the beautiful myth
dancing around your body
haunting every part of you

youre oblivious
yet,
you know shes dancing there

The monsters
The demons
The nightmares

My savior
My angels,
My dream
they were all trying to protect me
trying to protect me from you
screaming at me,
that you were the reason,
I fell
into hell

I take two steps back,
turn to face the mirror completely
& I see her
the girl I use to be
her hand outstretched towards me

the mirror
my escape

Im not running,
not this time
Im leaving you with the past,
Im leaving you behind

I hold my hand out to her
So she can take me in her darkened storm filled world

One more step
& Im in her dream
free from you
free from me

but I place, my hand back at my side

One more step
she beckons me

I turn to face you
my back against the mirror

part of me wants to run to you
& never ever let you go
but that part knows

forever with you,
is sleeping with the blade

so instead of running to you
I sing to you

Telling you
that I love you
but I dont need you
to find new breath into my lungs
to walk out into the sun
to live my life again

before, I hear your voice,
I turn away from you for the last time,
& grab the hand of the little girl,
finally entering her gloomy world

I hear you scream my name,
trying to stop me
before I leave forever
but, my angels spread their wings,
to keep you from reaching me

the blade in my heart
the blade in my vein
digging itself deeper
& staying forever

but Im not your puppet anymore

you are the mark within my soul
the dark light inside myself

forever,
will I remember,
all the happy memories,

Because I know,
I wont love you forever

But now,
I stand in the field
strong & free
holding the hand of the little girl
within the murderous storm
I am, who I use to be
I am alive

She smiles,
& I smile,
& tonight,
there is a break in the clouds...

THE END