Guess i should tell you my story.......

Before i get to it just going to say that the words are just going to spew out of my mouth so sorry if i misplace the rythem or have no rythem at all.....so here gos......

when i was born my lungs were but mush...
my body was underdeveloped.....
they put my in terminal and told me to hush......
but i lived on i developed and became normal....
1 year later my little borther died....almost the same way.....
and to this day i think that if i had died that my bro wouldent pay......

i got my first guitar when i was four.....
just toy compared to the gear i got now.....
when playing with my strat its all out war.....

emo....and gothic.....the names iv been branded......
iv always had long hair
im pale because i have SSSD.......
but i guess the only one to blame is me......
my hairs natural black.....
guess my genetics just set me up for a full scale attack.......

one day my grandma died.......
then little mommy got depressed and tried to drink herself to death
but in this point in my life i was so sad that i only sighed..

soon i started to have rage attacks......
poisoning everything around me......
turning a harsh cold black.......
soon had a mental breakdown.....
went to therapy......
looked at me and saw that everything wasnt so sound.....
docters also looked at me.......
said i something wrong with me.....
now it all makes sense.....
now i can see..........

i soon stoped believing in god......
cursing him for putting me on earth......
i felt like numb little pod..........

i had alot of relationships......for some reason gothic chicks love me!!!!!!
and then one day i met a girl.......
and shes the one who made me see......
i love you cindy.....
she was like no-one iv ever met........
almost like instant love for me.........
like a climaxing beach in sun-set......

but back to my story........
iv been getting help.....
havent had a mental breakdown or rage attack in a while......
once my problems were in a great big pile.....
but with my music my strat my friends and my girl......i think i have a chance.......
i think i have a chance.........

thats just kinda a short summery of everything interesting in my life.....not much.....but means alot to me.....